One would think 27 hours of travel, three flights and lots of waiting would be adequate preparation for returning to your home culture.
One would be wrong.
I was immediately overwhelmed in San Francisco by the customs lines, which were basically mass chaos of people pushing and being crowded into too small spaces after many long hours of traveling and not sleeping. The poor customs guy tried to make small talk with me and all I could do was nod, half-heartily answer and wander out into the airport.
Airports are overwhelming. After all of Holli and I's debating about what food we wanted to eat first when we reached America, I was way too disoriented to take in the endless amount of options and expensive prices and DEAR LORD the number of choices. So? I bought a banana and water and sat on the floor in a corner.
Things that used to be normal tasks that you knew you could do easily no longer are. I felt panicky while signing my name on a receipt for the first time because it felt like I was taking forever and I hadn't done it in over a year. Also weird? Paying with debit cards instead of cash. American money that includes coins.
Everyone talking in English causes brain overload and exhaustion. It is distracting and disorienting and completely nuts to go from being able to tune out a foreign language to suddenly being able to understand EVERYTHING that is going on around you.
Menus are also exhausting. I have no idea how I ever made decisions about anything when I lived in the U.S. I live in a country where everything is a variation on meat and flour. That doesn't exactly equate a lot of food options. My coping mechanism was to just generally order the first thing that sounded good to me.
So.Much.Food. It didn't help it was Thanksgiving, but still.
Grocery stores are a panic attack in waiting. It is also a doubly bad idea for the first time you go to one after over a year to be the day before Thanksgiving. Thankfully my sister, her bf and my dad were with me and they were incredibly helpful in figuring out what we needed so I didn't sit on the floor and cry. I went two more times before I left and it never really got easier. It was too overbearing to really take everything in so I also just kind of put my head down, got what I needed and got out as fast as possible.
Driving everywhere is strange. I missed walking.
Not having to wear lots of layers every time you walk out the door is awesome. SO awesome.
Worship services are so short in the U.S. -shorter than the average length of the sermon at my church every week here in fact. This is not a bad or good thing necessarily, just a weird thing to adjust to when you're visiting.
Fruit and salads ARE as good as I had remembered.
Beds in America are soft. So are couches and love seats and blankets and...yet somehow my back was missing my hard Mongolian bed. Go figure.
Jet lag totally messes with my body.
In two weeks, I:
-flew on nine different flights
-visited three different states (Pennsylvania, Texas and Ohio)
-was in five different time zones
-slept in five different places (thanks for letting me crash with you various friends and family members!)
-visited seven different airports (Chicago wins for being the airport I walked around the most in)
-saw countless friends and family members
-cooked Thanksgiving dinner for thirteen people with my sister
-ate hummus by the gallon, pumpkin by the can and yogurt by the quart
-spent a total of fifty-seven some hours in transit
I also did a lot of pondering of what it means to move between countries, cultures and places. I don't have anything figured out, but I will say that I think it's an incredibly individual and personal process each time that transition takes place, regardless of whether it's for two weeks or more permanently. This time was not like the time when I returned from Bolivia and I have no doubt my next re-entry will be it's own thing as well.
There is no magical answer for how to handle culture shock- reverse or otherwise. It is what it is. All I know is that we have to meet it in the best ways that we know how and that changes according to circumstances and situations.
Sometimes all it means is admitting that we are almost perpetually in transition to somewhere or something and having grace with ourselves in the midst of that.